Am I Worthy?

You know all those people you see? Those people on Instagram and Facebook? Those perfect families, perfect worship leaders, perfect pastors? Those people you compare yourself to? The ‘perfect’ ones? I know them. So many days I have sat in my own misery of judging myself and comparing myself to these people. Convincing myself that a perfect and holy God could never use me for His glory. But these people… these people He can use.

Then my mind wanders to another thought. Who am I to even think that these people would even want anything to do with me? The person who made so many bad choices in her life. The person who basically made a mess of her life. They probably look at me thinking, ‘Oh that poor girl! She tried so hard, but she’ll never make it. Just be nice to her. EGR! Extra Grace Required!’

I mean seriously! Those are the thoughts that have gone through my head. And I bet you’re thinking, ‘Oh come on! You can’t really think that way.’ But oh yeah! I do go there in my head. And it happens quite often. More than I’d like to say.

Satan loves it when I go there. That way he can keep me down. Keep me living in self pity, self doubt, and low self esteem. And you know what? Maybe there really are some people out there who think of me as not good enough and an extra grace required person. But God doesn’t think of me that way! He loves every bit of me! Satan would really love it if I stayed in that misery and those false beliefs.

So how do I beat those stories in my head? I start feeding my brain with the truth. I pick up my bible. I talk to God. I invite the Holy Spirit in and remind myself of what He thinks of me. He loves me so much that He sent his own son to die for me… for us!!!

For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him. John 3:16-17

Wow! How amazing is that? And this…

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 1 John 3:1

We are children of God! I am a child of God! He wants me to be His child! I must be worth something! There must by something useful in me! The one true king loves me and accepts me! I’ve heard it said that it’s not my business what other people think of me. But I know what God thinks of me, He thinks of me as his child and His friend.

I truly believe right now, in these crazy times, we are in a HUGE spiritual battle. There is so much going on in the world and satan is just roaming around, loving what he’s doing. Those thoughts that pop up in your head, you know the ones… ‘You’re not good enough to do that. You’re not pretty enough. Why would you even think you would get that job?’ Those thoughts aren’t coming from God. And boy does the evil one, the prince of lies, have lots of time right now to get in our heads during this quarantine.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12

So I want to say this to you today, sweet friends. Don’t listen to that voice! Satan is a liar! You ARE beautiful! You CAN do that thing you thought you couldn’t do! You WILL bring glory to God! You ARE enough! You ARE worthy!

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