I’m the kind of person who loves stability. I like a schedule. I like to know ahead of time what I’m going to be doing. I mean, I’m OK with some spontaneity, but lets keep it within safe bounds!
So when 2020 started, and things started to go awry, well, I gotta be honest here… I was freaking out! I’m not sure why I am the way that I am. (For all you Office watchers… Why are you the way that you are? Ha! Ha!) Maybe it’s because of my past, but stability and schedules make me feel secure.
So the question comes to mind, how does God define stability? Is it like my definition? Keeping a schedule, knowing how the day will go? Planning? Controlling? Keeping a certain amount of money in the bank for emergencies?
The definition of stable is ‘not likely to give way or overturn; firmly fixed’. OK, got it! I want things to stay firmly fixed. My day to day, my job, my house, my schedule, everything!
So why does everything seem so out of control in our world right now? We have no idea what’s going to change or happen day to day. God, don’t you want us to feel secure?
There it is again… ‘Do you trust me?’ Yes, God, yes I trust you! What does that have to do with my stability? (said with a whiny voice) His response… ‘EVERYTHING!’ Then this verse comes to mind.
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2 NLT
So, could it be that my personal definition of stability is way off? Am I too worried about worldly things? Do I need to change the way I’m thinking? Where do we find our stability in the world right now when so much has been taken away? I mean, we can’t even go to our church building right now! It’s been so long since I’ve been face to face with my family at church.
…I tell you not to worry about everyday life-whether you have enough food or drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to Him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Matthew 6:25-27
Wow! I’m still not fully trusting! And I really have no stability if I’m not trusting the one who thinks I am so valuable and is truly running things! Matthew 6:33 goes on to say…
Seek the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need.
Seek God above all else! ‘Firmly fix’ my eyes on the one who will never ‘give way’. I mean, I know this! I’ve been taught this at church! I’ve read this in my bible many times! But have I really been doing it? Apparently not as well as I thought I had been.
So help me to do it, God. I want to have that stability. Because what I thought stability was, never EVER truly made me feel stable. Maybe these hills and valleys will start to feel less scary, uneasy and frustrating when I am ‘firmly fixed’ on you, Father. I’m holding on to your promise…
But blessed is the man who trusts me, God… the woman who sticks with God. They’re like trees replanted in Eden, putting down roots near rivers – never a worry through the hottest of summers, never dropping a leaf, serene and calm through droughts, bearing fresh fruit every season. Jeremiah 17:7-8 MSG
I’m starting to be grateful for this weird, uncertain season. I’m learning how to fully trust in Him. I’m learning just how much He truly loves me.