I’m Struggling

I wrote this on April 7, 2020, but I think it is still very valid right now.

A little honesty here in this post… I’m struggling.

I’m struggling with this quarantine. I’m struggling not knowing how long this will last. I’m struggling not seeing my church family face to face on a regular basis. I’m struggling… with depression right now.

And I know that it’s good to be positive. I know that I need to get into the word and remember God’s promises. I know I shouldn’t give the devil a foothold. But I have to be real and admit that I’m struggling. This sucks!!

It’s horrible that so many people are losing loved ones. It’s horrible that the professionals don’t know how to stop this virus. It’s horrible that we can’t go out somewhere and meet a friend for coffee.

If I’m being real… I’m going to admit that, even as a Christian woman, knowing what I should do daily is really hard for me right now. Not that I am not having my quiet time, or getting into my bible reading, I am. But, it’s just hard right now.

And I think it’s OK to feel like this, but not live in it.

I’m giving these feelings to God. Allowing myself to feel them. Telling Him everyday ‘I’m done with this! But Your will be done’.

Praying for our world, for healing.

And it’s OK if you’re feeling that way too. Just don’t stay in it. Tell God! He already knows what you’re feeling anyway, He just wants to hear from you. I’ve been blowing up his ears daily!

And ask people to pray for you and with you. I have! The devil wants nothing more than to make us feel alone and think that what we are going through is too stupid to ask people for prayer. It’s not!

I just wanted to put this out there for those of you who may be feeling the same way. You may be hearing others say to just keep being positive, but it’s OK if you’re not always positive! It’s OK to feel. JUST DON’T STAY THERE. And tomorrow morning, wake up and give it all to Him again. Trust Him, because He knows how to handle this. He’s the King of the World.